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Losing Children

 The soul screams as the shock jolts you

Feeling like you can't breathe you drop to the floor

Comfort through its hardness, physical pain feels good

It hurts to cry any more


Dark thoughts knock the brain asunder

You can't admit your world will never be the same

The minutes feel like hours as you wonder

Where? What? And who's to blame? 


Like a bad dream you can't wake up from

Demons laugh and dance for joy at the corner of your eyes 

Feeding on your anguish and nagging brain fog,

and your tortured soul. All hope dies 


Each day is a lie, nothing brings joy

Forced to change, the familiar hurts too much

In an attempt to numb the inner spirit

Drugs and booze become a crutch       


The part that hurts the absolute most 

Is knowing that your life, and kids has changed

Even if you chance to ever get your kids back

Your world is always deranged       


There are two paths if you lose your kids

Even though the details are painfully scant

The first choice means you give up on your children

The second choice means you can't 

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